Janet Butler
An Unspeakable and Unbreakable Bond
Sometimes we need a moment.
Unsure of what we feel and think or even how to process things.
So, I’ll give you the time you need to sit in thought and ponder over yesterdays and tomorrows.
Needing your space to find your place in this world has become a burdensome task all of its own.
My heart longs in pain and feels the pressures that you endure.
I feel your heartbeat just as I did when I carried you in my womb years before.
This undo, but needed stress penetrates and filtrates through your being reaching and connecting once again.
Feeling like you’ve been ravished with a disease so unforgiving and so unkind.
I see you withering and wilting in front of my eyes.
Wanting desperately to give you what you need.
My instinct is to take it all away and yet not knowing where to start, is killing me.
I want to run to you, hold you in my arms and kiss all the bad boo boos away, just to see you smile again.
I want to swaddle my baby and tell you it will be alright.
I want to hold you close to resync our hearts and breaths, putting you in a calming spell.
Needing to hear you say you are better than just okay, would be like hearing your voice the first time you spoke your first word.
I want to tell you stories that make you glow and cheer as they did once upon a time.
Taking you and me both back to a time when things were so simple and enjoyable.
You will forever be my blessing, my joy, my reason for living, and what always keeps me pushing forward.
Somethings need to be said and have to be, in order to clear the way for new beginnings.
Then at other times we just know without a word spoken or jester made this bond we share as mother and child will forever withstand the test of time.
You my dear know the amount of love I have for you is immeasurable and all consuming.
Know that when I prayed for you, I was truly blessed beyond measure.
I’ll always be by your side no matter what! I am so proud of you, who you’ve been, and who you’re becoming!
You are perfect in every since of the word! You are brave!
Having to face some hard things, you are growing, learning and knowing what needs to be done.
Just know…
The day you were born I gave you my heart without strings or conditions placed upon it.
Never regretted it for a moment!
Bonded for life, an eternal unbreakable relationship we share! We are two and walk as one!
You are my twin, my mini me, you encompass all of me and now you are finding your print to place your stamp in this world. You will deliver! I’m here, I will assist as your guide.
Do not seek approval outwardly.
You have the answers, look within!
Never give up because, I will never give up on you!
I know you are tired and down spirited, but know you have everything you need to get through anything!
I speak to you in your dreams. I sit with you in thought.
My spirit is always with you, right there every step of the way from the very start.
In this lifetime
I say it clear, my heart will always be here.
This bond we share is both unspeakable and unbreakable.
We are intertwined from vessel to vein, my heartbeat!
I’ll never give up!
My greatest accomplishment in this world, giving birth to you, assigned as your mother!
~JMB~